Travel Rogue

I thought today what it would be like if you were gone from my life. Of course its hard for me to fathom. But like I said before, it would only be your physical self. As cliche as it sounds, I really believe that souls live on. Only Popo's body is gone, and she's probably thankful for it, as her being always extended beyond her physical form. Remember her bobby pins? Remember her skill with the abacus?

Popo and I were always very different, but the way I paint my nails and occasionally give in to the girlie side of me, likely comes from her. She taught me how to file my nails and wear a chaum sung, but she also taught me how to crochet and play mah jong. She was (is) a very strong, proud woman, and I see that in all her children, but you especially. And you passed that quality along to me.

You and I are more alike than me and Popo. From you, I have an unexplainable draw to music and art, even though I am horrific at producing either. From you, I have the curiosity to try anything at least once. You say that bungee jumping is reckless, but I say that bellydancing is bizarre. There is no explaining what draws us to the unexpected, but we both tend to explore our passions despite what anyone else thinks. And we're both fortunate enough to be naturally gifted that we never look like fools. Rather, we inspire others to take on what we've sampled.

I love you so much for shaping me into the person I am today. With values, compassion and self-respect intact. You are my mother, and I am the embodiment of your best qualties.

And I say to you what you would say to me, "Be strong for your family." The one thing that you are that I never will be is the oldest sibling. You are responsible for shoring up grandpa and comforting Bellie, Teddy and Bertha. But you know what? Love is infinite. You can give and give and give, and it will never dissipate. I know how our family is...and at times, you don't need to say anything. You just need to be there and your presence is comfort enough. Project the strength that you passed on to me, and those around you will feel stronger too.

Love you tons and hope to see you very soon, if not sooner.

xoxox,
C